Homesick Butterfly...

And there was a moment in her life where she stood at the edge of the cliff looking out over the world...

http://hailstorm13.deviantart.com/art/at-the-edge-of-the-cliff-2-175287194

She closed her eyes and saw glimpses of the most beautiful things in her life and she smiled.

falling in love

babies being born

kisses

hugs

birthdays

prayers that were answered

laughs

stolen moments

new beginnings...

Then she faced the other side of the cliff and closed her eyes once again... she saw all of the things that hurt her the most and said to them, "You made me feel the way I do in this moment."

the lies

broken promises

friendships that were fake

heartache

deceit

being lonely

afraid

desperate...

And for a moment she let the anger boil up inside her and she wanted to scream. She picked up rocks and threw them and threw them and threw them until she literally was so exhausted she crumpled up on the ground and wept. She eventually got to the point where she couldn't cry any longer. She shut the door on those memories. She stood up.  And she decided that those things weren't going to hurt her any longer.

The woman walked over to the side of the cliff where the good memories resided and wiped her face with a dirty hand. The dirt mixed with her tears and painted marks of primal beauty across her face. There was a resolve that came over her. It was as if there wasn't a thing in the world that could ever touch her again. With a final deep breath she closed her eyes and whispered, "help me Lord," and then as if nothing else mattered to her anymore she let herself fall.

And for the first time in her life...

'alis volat propriis'

(she flew with her own wings)...